seeing baby for the last time 

before we will be meetin each other again 

in klia airport 17 days later.

i wana cry !!

cant wait to be back now !!

arrrrghhh +.T

3 months of studyin life in uk has finally come to an end.
lookin back at the past 3 months,
i feel that i neva really enjoyed myself here.
i have spent most of my time here doin
assignments, presentations, facing huge exam stress, and cryin.
i couldnt enjoy myself at all even though i really wanted to do so.
this is totally not the memories i expected to bring back before i came.
somehow i regretted to be here as well.
so many things happened,
so many things have changed.
now i even feel scared to go back to where i always wanted to be.
i wonder if there's still a reason for me to go back now..

once again i have broke my promise.
but you neva know how much i wanted to mean what i promised,
and what was actually happened that have to break it.
because you neva want to know.
you neva want to accept any reasons.
because you think that there are just all excuses to you.
all are lies that just to cover up the broken promises.
i can do nothin to stop you to think that way.
perhaps i shouldnt have promise anythin to you at all.
if only once, just once that you could be in the shoe of mine.
i guess what im sayin here are just nonsense to you.
because i find my words worth nothin to you at all.
how success am i, 
to have my loved one to tell me that he doesnt want to see me anymore.
i deserve all this, huh?


hell yeah.

生气你
哪怕只是为了一点小事
很快在下一分钟就后悔到要死
觉得自己很过分


只因为太愧疚于你对我的好。

Emptiness

每天晚上关了电脑
要睡觉的时候
都在想：
现在又剩下我一个人了
电脑关了他就好像不在我身边了
快天亮吧，我想开回电脑
越想就越睡不着
想开手机的歌听听
却永远只跳去那首歌
听着听着还会想哭
想到累了
不知不觉才睡得着
这几晚都是这样过的
或许太大压力吧
我觉得很空虚
很难熬的空虚

broke down for second time within a week.

faster end please,

i need to get away from stress.

so desperately.

i duno how many times i've told u this

but have i not told u lately?

of how lucky i am to have u in my life.

i feel treasured and precious under ur care.

and i hope u'll feel the same too !!

i ❤ u