picture says it all.

blessed christmas +.^

你问我为什么怕你？

难不成你要我恨你吗？

u gave birth to me doesnt mean u can treat me 
in any fcukin way u want and any fcukin way u like.
i fcukin happy and lucky that i dont need to stay at home everyday 
even though i need to listen to all those fcukin words from u
at least i can take a break and escape from this fcukin sufferin life 
or else i'll gone fcukin crazy.

是不是在一起久了，

很多事情都可以省略掉呢？

太过分了
人做长辈你做长辈
你却做到一点都不让我觉得你值得被尊敬
等着瞧吧
你的所作所为会有报应的
等你以后下地狱升天了
最好是一个女儿都不用回来拜你
我们有本事会靠自己
不需要靠你们幼稚的风水！

看着外婆对着外公的遗体哭得死去活来，

现在想到心还是会很痛。

眼看着最亲最爱的人离你远去，

却什么也做不到，

现在想到还是会崩溃地流下眼泪。

现在，外公只能成为回忆。

外公，您安心走吧，别挂心了。

you'll always be missed.

告诉自己，

你一定要活得比我久，

至少你比我更坚强，

而我，根本无法再忍受这种离别的痛苦。

i've found a job !!
applied for every possible jobs after previous company not holdin his promise 
and my friends workin there did not even dare to ask for me.
received countless number of calls for interview 
and rejected those that location are not convenient for me.
finally accepted some companies and went for 2 interviews 
the 2nd interview was challengin but fun so i managed to pull it through
then i got a confirm call from the 2nd company, which im quite like it as well, 
on that day itself just as im back home +.=
i did not consider too long and accepted their offer 
and then rejected the rest of interview arrangements lolx
and i got myself a better offer compared to the previous one +.^


cant wait to start work d heeeeeeeeeeee +.^

i don't know. i really don't.

If you love someone, 

you have to let them go.
If they come back, they are yours.

If not, they never were.

If its meant to be, love always finds its way.

gona meditate this to myself

from now on.

even i still couldnt stop myself

from being heartache.

im not supposed to be selfish.

im not supposed to be the obstacle.

im gona be happy for you.

:')

im back !!
for a week already heeee
got to meet my family and baby after for so long
life has been ok with me stayin at home
doin house chores and facebook
until i went cameron with baby :D
we enjoyed alot there
and then im back home 
with more house chores, nothin else to do in facebook 
and start searchin for job already
but some things that i dislike never changed 
that make me starts to feel not right for stayin at home all the time
i wana work so desperately now. 

  the jumper that i bought for him looks so smart on him :))

seeing baby for the last time 

before we will be meetin each other again 

in klia airport 17 days later.

i wana cry !!

cant wait to be back now !!

arrrrghhh +.T

3 months of studyin life in uk has finally come to an end.
lookin back at the past 3 months,
i feel that i neva really enjoyed myself here.
i have spent most of my time here doin
assignments, presentations, facing huge exam stress, and cryin.
i couldnt enjoy myself at all even though i really wanted to do so.
this is totally not the memories i expected to bring back before i came.
somehow i regretted to be here as well.
so many things happened,
so many things have changed.
now i even feel scared to go back to where i always wanted to be.
i wonder if there's still a reason for me to go back now..

once again i have broke my promise.
but you neva know how much i wanted to mean what i promised,
and what was actually happened that have to break it.
because you neva want to know.
you neva want to accept any reasons.
because you think that there are just all excuses to you.
all are lies that just to cover up the broken promises.
i can do nothin to stop you to think that way.
perhaps i shouldnt have promise anythin to you at all.
if only once, just once that you could be in the shoe of mine.
i guess what im sayin here are just nonsense to you.
because i find my words worth nothin to you at all.
how success am i, 
to have my loved one to tell me that he doesnt want to see me anymore.
i deserve all this, huh?


hell yeah.

生气你
哪怕只是为了一点小事
很快在下一分钟就后悔到要死
觉得自己很过分


只因为太愧疚于你对我的好。

Emptiness

每天晚上关了电脑
要睡觉的时候
都在想：
现在又剩下我一个人了
电脑关了他就好像不在我身边了
快天亮吧，我想开回电脑
越想就越睡不着
想开手机的歌听听
却永远只跳去那首歌
听着听着还会想哭
想到累了
不知不觉才睡得着
这几晚都是这样过的
或许太大压力吧
我觉得很空虚
很难熬的空虚

broke down for second time within a week.

faster end please,

i need to get away from stress.

so desperately.

i duno how many times i've told u this

but have i not told u lately?

of how lucky i am to have u in my life.

i feel treasured and precious under ur care.

and i hope u'll feel the same too !!

i ❤ u

dun bullshit please.

u know exactly how scary u are.

Thank you Friends For Sale !

you have brought us nearer in this 1 year time.

will surely miss u lots.

Rest In Peace.

when things doesnt go right,

i wont blame anymore.

i would think of the time remainin here,

and think of him.

i hate to wait 
but i just have to do this right now

cuz it makes me feelin even better :')

分开的时光虽然难熬，

但只会让相遇的时刻变得更美好 ：）

❤❤❤

this is what we called

：： 情趣 ：：

LOL !!

第一次觉得我简直是付出了全部在这个assignment里面。
你们要不然是来谈天，
要不然就是拼命出去打电话跟朋友求救，
然后拿回来当作是自己的答案。
朋友帮不到，就跟我说想不到idea。
真是有够你们的。
既然你们有脸要求平分制，
你们说得出我就成全你们。

*鄙视你*

book flight ticket
book train ticket
book hotel room
book luggage storage
everythin have to settled by myself
just because im all alone here
but it'll all worth for me
just to get back to the place where i been missin the most


but hou ma fan lor ~
+.<

whenever i see those people 
wishin other people's birthday on fb wall

i always wana ask:

can u at least give a smiley 
if u're just typin out two words?

i cant feel ur sincerity 
by just lookin at the two words without any expression.

what are u tryin to tell?

owh u're being forced, no choice but to do that.

well i'll do that if i wana let that person know 

that actually i dun really wana wish u but since u did 
so i have to do the same for manners purpose.
and i only did that once. 
and i guess that person deleted my post too
cuz that person cant feel my sincerity
while in fact i didnt mean to be sincere as well.
but i dont really care lolx.

so was that ur reason too?

LOL.

 

With you is where I'd rather be

But we're stuck where we are

It's so hard, you're so far

This long distance is killing me.